䷰ Crazy=Genius @xinjinmeng@dragon.style

Yes, hello! I am Xin Jin Meng, the Novelty of the Golden Fantastic. Welcome to my social medium!

I am a furry, a dragon, an enby, a primadonna, a virago, a vorarephile, a sybarite, an aesthete, and if there's any time left over after all that, an artist.

I have come to Mastodon because I want to talk about things that matter to me on a personal level. I will endeavor to respect your feelings, with content warnings and elsewhere, but I am not safe for work.

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I don't post a lot of art to mastodon because this is where I go when I'm not "on." 🍷

And now, Steve Rude, God of Ink

Current mood: wondering how I should feel about how the cut-and-paste unspoiled-by-progress 1990s webcomic that I'm reading is addressing gender dysphoria 🤨

Happy International Non-Binary Day! 💚🤍💜

We're never going to let the elevator break us down.
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Art by Becheneda
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9533555/

Not sure I should be bragging about having seen "The Tin Drum" movie.

I am joined with the artfight! https://artfight.net/~Xinjinmeng 
I think you better love me, because I'm really kinda nice.

I didn't want to post anything about being sad, but I didn't have anything else to post about. 😶

I wanted to give this show a chance, opening as it did with "the nineties were so edgy, weren't they, when subtext was for cowards." But when episode 2 opened with the bad guy outright breaking the fourth wall, admitting that the show is terrible and only for "Grant Morrison fans and the three new people who hang around", just DARING me to shut it off.... well, challenge accepted. Life's too short.

We have such sights to show you! 
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I don't feel as strong as I fear that I need to be. 😬

Oh, we're streaming. Here's some odds and ends from the previous month.
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Permit me to present a design document, "Monkish Combat in the Arena of Promotion" (Best of Dragon, 1985)

https://imagecomics.com/comics/series/920-london

It's a slice-of-life furry comic set in post-9/11 pre-smartphone London, about two LGBTQ emo college students who have a bed-death codependent relationship. Also, they're some kind of animal people. There's lots of Millenial signifiers: Jhonen Vasquez, Tim Burton, Johnny Urine. There's also lots of furry signifiers: the story is extremely decompressed, very slice-of-life, dripping with gender fluidity, and meandering without real plot or resolution. The story obviously comes from a very personal place, and there's lots of little bits of verisimilitude what makes this feel heartfelt and sincere. While it's unfortunate that there's almost no effort put to story-telling, that's probably not important to the core audience.  920 London is pure and uncut, a rush and not a buzz.  Recommended for millenial, furries, and whatever they call "hipsters" now. 👍

There are mastodon users where I'm not blocked from viewing their posts... but their posts don't show up in my feeds, and any attempts to like or to reblog their posts produces an error message.
And I'm not sure how to ask about it, because I can't tell if I'm supposed to be completely blocked or not. 🙁

https://medium.com/@nicolas.j.carter/how-to-know-youre-not-insane-and-how-a-cards-against-humanity-staff-writer-was-fired-40fe07fbbfe4

Part of what keeps me estranged from culture is that I pick up on the vibes from things, like this terrible, reductive game, and it gets washed away in the peer pressure.

#BigMood

Get in, bitch. We're gonna create some content.
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Community management is a skill. Not everyone has it.
It's disappointing to watch a community fall apart because of a lack of leadership, but being a leader isn't fun, it's work. It's exhausting.
I spend a lot of time being a self-starter because I don't work with a lot of leaders. Sometimes I feel like I'm pushing myself into places where I wasn't invited, so I'm not supposed to be there.
I don't get invited to a lot of things. I'm told diversity is good, but I fear I might have the bad wrong kind of diversities.
Sure, I've been told that I'm "difficult to work with", which has sometimes been true and has sometimes just been an excuse for poor leadership. I'm not sure which has been which, but one part of adulting is sifting through the complaints, addressing the valid ones for self-improvement, and dismissing the rest.
One of the larger projects I was in was shut down today, and I found out about it third-hand. I thought it were just delayed due to COVID. I'm disappointed in how the leadership was handled, I was the only person rooting for it, it seems.
I could finish what I started, but now I feel hollow and exhausted and alone. I thought I was a part of something. Now I'm not.

Don't you hate it when you find the perfect font for a job, but it doesn't have any lower-case letters? #DesignWorldProblems