Saphire Lattice @saphire@dragon.style

Oooh.
Mastalab got renamed into Fedilab. Woohoo fediverse~!

Feel conflicted about parents. On one paw I kinda need support and they kinda seem to provide some?

On another I am somewhat scared of them in some way and etc. With casual "lol" when they converse with one another about me wanting to live alone on my own :V

Then there was time when father lashed out at me by threatening with broken nose for shouting in reply annoyedly at mother?

Oh and they don't consider freelance a real work ._.

Being unable to describe father, being annoyed when I'm getting asked to do.. just about anything by him, and him being more annoyed/aggressive to me lately...

That's not a good thing, is it?

Now I want to root my phone, just to extract the Steam's shared secret for their stupid custom OTP. Fun to implement though.

Maybe I should throw my collection of tiny usercss stuff in somewhere...

Hm.

Poking around at ASP.NET Core. It's... interesting!

And I had to take it from the basics to understand that some things it does are automatic and implicit. After C and such, it just feels so weird x3

Awr, can't find any shots of those shiny suuuuuits from Aquaman movie on internet. And ships. And anything shiny from there q-q

So, got to watch Aquaman yesterday. Apparently I got to see it literally a week before full US release?

Thankfully there was a place locally where I could see it in English without translation, though without any 3D either because it was a small screen (don't regret it at all though).

So, movie is... good. That's me saying it as a person who has no idea about DC universe, doesn't watch too many movies and prefers random fanfics most of the time. Plot is... well, it's a superhero movie.

Also, a subjective though: some of the visuals and scenes and music are straight out Tron: Legacy. I guess I won't spoil it up!

Hi anxiety

I too enjoy worrying about what is apparently subdermal fat or something over my ribs. So fun. Yay. Bleh.

So, I got an ECG, and it is normal (though medics wrote "sinus tachycardia", even though I had BPM of 85) and matches perfectly what I had 3 years ago.

Gah.. I decided to think on whole heart stuff, that I get pretty rapid pulse going up the stairs and.. just walking home from university. So I'm now worried, what if there are some heart issues? But last time I went through specialists, they found nothing? Other than slapping a catch-all thing that practically means "healthy but anxiety" or something.

So I am trying to understand what the heck is that cookie is to find a recipe of it.

Got almonds (and cinnamon?) in it, pretty springy, not wet nor dry. This example was cut out after being cooked, not before because apparently they had nothing to cut it out with before. I haven't got recipe nor name :C

Bleh. Stupid little quirk of darn brain x.x

So after some observation over myself and so, it seems that I am having a panicky state from.. thinking of panic attack in terms of "what if it is heart issue", etc. And feeling of something lightly brushing/tightening over my chest (hi shirt or blanket and my sore chest muscle) makes me worry more. Up to jumping from it all. Brr, adrenaline feels weird when it jumps x.x

@anthracite

...oh, and "buy this book (EU)" links to sedoparked dead domain. Hooray to link rot.

Just found @anthracite 's "Decrypting Rita" comic. Okay, not found but rather just followed a link. Pretty interesting if somewhat confusing!

*Goes back to binge-reading*

Meanwhile I am happy with that I managed to set up a one-node cluster of Ceph.

Apparently a minimum replication requirement is not a recommendation and is mandatory for data to be "active" and onlin.

Hooray. It's evening, I am still alive, and I am still having faint numbness that I am pretty much constantly squinting at in my head and worry over ever so little all the time. Along with faintly wet eyes, faintly numb tongue, faintly tingling lower/left-ish lips... Though some stuff on right too! Sometimes.

Oh, and I remembered that my dad was a paramedic for 4 years some time ago, woo.

And still feel sorry for a friend I scared into screaming to go to hospital >.>

And then got them kinda annoyed at me for saying that I can't because parents being awake and telling me that I am okay and calling an ambulance is not needed.

*grumbles a bit*

*Grumbles at internet* Don't feel anything different about breathing, just numbness kinda feeling around pectoral muscles on the left. Kinda close to chest so...

*flops around*