NSFW art stream link
https://piczel.tv/watch/Renolethyn
i draw butt and boob and possibly a benis
A semi-brief expulsion about perception of being sick
Actually hang on, it's kinda fucked up how like
You can wake up with a buncha extra goop in your head, leaking out of the front of your face or sliding down the back of your throat
Maybe you're dehydrated real bad or have a weird, specific allergy that only crops up one one particular mushroom ring blooms in your yard or just are real sensitive to overcast days
But there's some cornstarch and paper glue nonsense plugging up your head, you got a headache, you can only breathe fuckwise, to the left, or upside down, every 4th breath you gotta swallow SOMETHING but also not set off your gag reflex on some bungee cord booger
But somehow that isn't really "being sick"? It's just weird what our barometer for "sick" is (a lot of it is fever-related--like you're not Really Sick until your body's trying to cook you in your own skin to hopefully kill a pathogen before your brain denatures)
I have wondered if I have The Autisms because of the way I ... Violently fixate and respond to Food Stuff. Not food itself, like the preparation and history and accessibility of it.
Like how shitty the 'lmao brits just eat boiled paste' meme is and 'white people don't use spices' and 'asians eat cats' just stuff like that. it's WRONG. or missing some context sometimes. or lying by omission! Like "white food doesn't have spices" technically correct, utilizes more herbs, smoke, and broths.
And I get so... unbelievably irrationally angry. I get less upset about being called slurs than I do about food elitism.
There is no point to this post, I took my braincase off and let the steam make marks on the internet for a moment. Apologies!
nsfw; mascot-plush in a racy outfit
'like that' meaning like. pretty, appealing, inherently valuable
nsfw; mascot-plush in a racy outfit
I don't think this is a gender thing but I was doing one of my daily ...lay in bed and overthink things bits and just wound up all fulla gross self loathing cause i've got the body of an out of shape ogryn, but like, short and didn't know how to express it but this scribble of reno trying to look pretty and failing cause we're both ... not the right person-shape to be like that
I live in a constant state of fear and misery.