Zeta's 2021 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
Man, coming back from two months in the hospital with overwhelming suicidal ideation is a trip and a half. I'm simultaneously going 100mph and am frozen.
Zeta's 2021 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
And heading in for PHP (partial hospitalization). Still need to write up that journal about what's happened.
Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
So PHP didn't work and I ended up heading back into inpatient... but I'm now out of that again (round 2 at one place, 5 at the other).
I'm now packing for another boarded PHP option that should be able to help me, I desperately hope.
Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
Said PHP is Crownview out in Oceanside, CA, for the record.
Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
Okay, should be heading there tomorrow. I think I'm ready as I can be for this...
Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
Also, I hate "will my taxi actually be on time tomorrow". I hate. I hate. I hate.
Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
Still very tired and very anxious. I hope things will calm down soon. Unfortunately I have to cook for everyone later and manage the anxiety around that. :(
re: Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
@zetasyanthis hi!
re: Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
@zetasyanthis Best of luck. Even though I know only a fragment of what's going on, this sounds exactly no fun whatsoever. I'm rooting for you!
re: Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
I do keep meaning to write up a WTF-has-happened-to-zeta journal, but I've not gotten there quite yet. Maybe this week, if brains can calm down a bit.
Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc)
Guess who has phone access again! This girl just phased up and has some ability to communicate more!