Zeta's 2021 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

Man, coming back from two months in the hospital with overwhelming suicidal ideation is a trip and a half. I'm simultaneously going 100mph and am frozen.

Zeta's 2021 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

And heading in for PHP (partial hospitalization). Still need to write up that journal about what's happened.

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Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

So PHP didn't work and I ended up heading back into inpatient... but I'm now out of that again (round 2 at one place, 5 at the other).

I'm now packing for another boarded PHP option that should be able to help me, I desperately hope.

Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

Said PHP is Crownview out in Oceanside, CA, for the record.

Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

Okay, should be heading there tomorrow. I think I'm ready as I can be for this...

Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

Also, I hate "will my taxi actually be on time tomorrow". I hate. I hate. I hate.

Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

Guess who has phone access again! This girl just phased up and has some ability to communicate more!

Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

Still very tired and very anxious. I hope things will calm down soon. Unfortunately I have to cook for everyone later and manage the anxiety around that. :(

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@zetasyanthis Best of luck. Even though I know only a fragment of what's going on, this sounds exactly no fun whatsoever. I'm rooting for you!

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@Leucrotta

I do keep meaning to write up a WTF-has-happened-to-zeta journal, but I've not gotten there quite yet. Maybe this week, if brains can calm down a bit.

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@zetasyanthis I love you and I miss you :blobheart:

When you're able, please share an address we can send letter-mail to you- I've got a lil' backlog stored up. :blobuwu:

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@mawr

Will do. And thank you Mawr, really. <3

re: Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

@zetasyanthis i'm not really entirely sure what's going on but i hope everything goes well for you
-F

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@Felthry Anxiety so bad it's making me suicidal, basically. I meant to write up a post about WTF is going on, but haven't finished it yet. Basically bouncing between different hospitals atm. :(

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@zetasyanthis i hope things can improve for you, then. I like you and want you to feel good

i understand the anxiety though. it can be a lot
-F

re: Zeta's 2021-2022 hospital journey (MH, sui, etc) 

@zetasyanthis safe travels, and wishing you the best on your journey 💜

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