Gah.. I decided to think on whole heart stuff, that I get pretty rapid pulse going up the stairs and.. just walking home from university. So I'm now worried, what if there are some heart issues? But last time I went through specialists, they found nothing? Other than slapping a catch-all thing that practically means "healthy but anxiety" or something.
(+) Tasty biscuits/cookies
So I am trying to understand what the heck is that cookie is to find a recipe of it.
Got almonds (and cinnamon?) in it, pretty springy, not wet nor dry. This example was cut out after being cooked, not before because apparently they had nothing to cut it out with before. I haven't got recipe nor name :C
(-) Panic attacks, grumbling
Bleh. Stupid little quirk of darn brain x.x
So after some observation over myself and so, it seems that I am having a panicky state from.. thinking of panic attack in terms of "what if it is heart issue", etc. And feeling of something lightly brushing/tightening over my chest (hi shirt or blanket and my sore chest muscle) makes me worry more. Up to jumping from it all. Brr, adrenaline feels weird when it jumps x.x
...oh, and "buy this book (EU)" links to sedoparked dead domain. Hooray to link rot.
Just found @anthracite 's "Decrypting Rita" comic. Okay, not found but rather just followed a link. Pretty interesting if somewhat confusing!
*Goes back to binge-reading*
Panic attack aftermatch, still some worrying, stuff.
Hooray. It's evening, I am still alive, and I am still having faint numbness that I am pretty much constantly squinting at in my head and worry over ever so little all the time. Along with faintly wet eyes, faintly numb tongue, faintly tingling lower/left-ish lips... Though some stuff on right too! Sometimes.
Oh, and I remembered that my dad was a paramedic for 4 years some time ago, woo.
And still feel sorry for a friend I scared into screaming to go to hospital >.>
And then got them kinda annoyed at me for saying that I can't because parents being awake and telling me that I am okay and calling an ambulance is not needed.
*grumbles a bit*
Over-panicking about panicking
So... I guess I have had (amd still kinda do) a panic attack.
And I'm still worried what if it was a heart attack. Wikipedia really helps with saying how panic often "feels like patient is having a heart attack". Fucking positive feedback loop.
And calming down feels scary as I keep feeling faint numbness on left near armpit, in upper part of it.
VERY RAPIDLY SHAKING TEXT WARNING
WHY? BECAUSE WHY NOT
It all started with politician’s nasty tweets at each other. Then it escalated to comment wars spanning practically every site. Now, every day, everywhere, the Internet is being bombarded by DOS attacks and viruses on websites of all kinds. World War III has begun, and it’s entirely online.
Sick/dying pets, grumbling
My dog is making me whimper and cry as he just... keeps whining and barking and licking and just making so much noise... Oh and he's paralyzed on hindpart and has utterly no bladder control.
And because of living with parents, there's not really much I can do on this. Woo.
Slowly going crazy from this tiny stream of constant, persistent and unending stress.
Grumbling and caps about the same
Cue example: open a new tab, punch in `https://dragon.style/web/timelines/public`, and hitting "back" button in the column...
Gets me back to new tab! FFS, people, STOP USING HISTORY API AS YOUR STANDARD NAVIGATION MEASURE.
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