Heads-up: this is a private, personal account. I ask that people @ me before follow-requesting so I find out if I'm comfortable being open in my locked posts in front of them. Please look over my profile and pinned toots and tell me:
- Where you found my account from,
- Who you are, and
- Why you are interested in following.
You need to understand what lets me feel safe and tell me enough about you that I do, but your toot doesn't have to be elaborate as long as it /does/ tell me; "someone boosted one of your toots and your account looks cool - I'm an autistic trans furry too, can I follow" would still likely show enough.
(If you are seeing this pinned toot because I copy+pasted the above into your DMs, thank you - I appreciate your going to this effort.)
Packbat = a social justice trans gxrl looking for thoughtful musings and pretty art, sharing other people's stuff, and being mentally ill on main (446 words under the cut) Show more
- By 'hikikomori' I mean that I was expected to achieve academic and professional greatness but dropped out of school to live in a house owned by my parents with no job and little in-person interactions with others. If I am missing important subtleties of the definition, I apologize.
- I tend to follow people on social media platforms based on whether I want to subscribe to the feed they are authoring and/or curating, so I neither expect nor make a rule of follow-backs.
- Follows are locked because ... okay, they were *originally* locked because followbots are creepy, but *now* they're locked because I show a lot of vulnerability in locked posts and I want to have some amount of comfort with people I let see them.
- (So far, the people who discover my presence here and care to see what I post seem to be mostly all right.)
- I'm not *fond* of discourse, but frankly, sometimes an opinion being contentious makes it *more* important to pick a side. I try to voice and share thoughtful takes.
- (Also, I have no patience for people who tell me that asexual and aromantic folks aren't queer. That one, I tend to be less "thoughtful" and more "emphatic in my rejection of something which directly harms me")
- My mom did a lot of emotional guilt-tripping. A lot of underhanded-but-widely-accepted-by-society manipulative tactics trigger major anxiety in me, but also just ... people adding emphasis to their recommendations by phrasing them as obligations (e.g. "you have to play this game!"). 'Preciate it if you didn't, especially at me.
- I don't talk a lot about being an atheist - I have Opinions about people who try to impose their theology on others - but I am fairly emphatically one. Mostly turns up in "as a metaphysical naturalist, this is why I disagree with such-and-such societal prejudice that gets passed off as 'scientific'" contexts, but I do sometimes make CWed post rambling or ranting about things.
- As of now, I play a lot of correspondence chess on Gameknot - https://gameknot.com/#packbat - for reasons that are still kind of obscure to me.
- Tabletop RPGs! <3 <3 <3 I play a lot, but haven't GMed much as of yet. My first system was SLUG - https://www.panix.com/~sos/rpg/slug.html - but most of my experience is with D&D.
- No longer unsure of whether I'm furry. 😸 Currently going back and forth between a dragon sona I haven't drawn or had drawn yet and the bat-eared fox sona that @aflightybroad volunteered to draw for me:
on what it means when someone lets you know that you messed up (quote, transphobia mention) Show more
"I guess the moral of the story, or the one I hope some readers take away, is that when YOU are the person doing it — calling the wrong pronoun, saying the ignorant thing, etc. — your behavior is both unacceptable and deeply familiar. And when a trans person takes time to call you out, to explain it to you, to show vulnerability or anger, it comes at a personal risk and a personal cost. It is your job to make that worthwhile."
- Lewis Wallace, "A week or two of being trans at work" https://medium.com/@lewispants/a-week-or-two-of-being-trans-at-work-ddb46134bf38
(Generalize to other marginalized groups.)
As with most philosophies, this can’t really be proven or disproven; there’s no sense trying to argue someone out of the opinion that Phil is an asshole for not acting the way famous people are supposed to act – or, crucially, for not acting the way *we* would act in his place. This is a popular argument because it’s an argument you can’t lose – no one can empirically prove whether Phil is or isn’t an asshole. What gets elided in this argument is the assumption that famous assholes – people who don’t act the way famous people are *supposed* to act – deserve to be *punished*.
- "This Is Phil Fish", Innuendo Studios, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PmTUW-owa2w
(Content warnings on the full video for discussion of harassment, insults framed in terms of sexual assault, and bigotry.)
on promising your account is safe for a marginalized group (364 words) Show more
...the more I understand about how many complicated ways people can be vulnerable and how diverse all our marginalized groups can be, the harder it feels to promise safety. I'm trans and nonbinary, but I'm also indubitably transfeminine - so how do I promise safety to transmasculine people when I don't really know what they need?
Heck, I can't even promise safety to my future self - there is so much I don't know, and so much that I've learned that I haven't noticed the poison in, that I'm sure to err in ways I cannot even imagine until later. *I'm ace* and I reblogged acephobic crap on Tumblr for a while - and while I've deleted those reblogs and unfollowed the person who posted them, how many other things have I screwed up unwittingly?
I'm trying to be safe for nonbinary people, for trans people, for queer people, for lesbians and other gay people, for bi people, for polyamorous people, for polysexual people, for ace people and aro people and people who are both, for autistic people, for trauma survivors, for disabled people, for PoC, for sex workers ... I'm trying, and I'm getting better at it, but I can't just say that I'm safe. That's a promise larger than I can make, larger than I feel comfortable asking anyone to make.
I can try to be safe, I can (hopefully, barring overwhelm from torrents of trolls) listen to critique when I err, and I'm getting pretty good at noticing the difference between "this is a member of a marginalized group asking for consideration and respect" and "this is an advocate for a harmful ideology co-opting a language of social justice for the purpose".
I can't promise to be safe, but I can promise to avoid most of the big mistakes, to acknowledge the mistakes I do make when informed of them, and to forever seek to do better by people.
...and maybe that's what people mean when they share those "my account is safe for" posts. But this is what I mean when I don't.
request re: dollmakers salt Show more
Please notice when dollmakers exclude people like this
exclude dark human-tone skins, exclude afro-textured hair, exclude me and people like me
exclude fat people and tubby people and everyone but skinny people, too
it sucks to want to represent yourself and to realize you don't exist in the world someone built to play in - that they either decided you should be excluded or forgot you existed entirely
so please notice
Looking for music recs!
I prefer multi-instrumental stuff with a lot of melodic complexity and rhythms, low levels of dissonance, and a strong but interesting beat.
dollmakers salt Show more
someone online: I found a cool dollmaker!
me: that does look cool!
me: *clicks through, starts putting togther a character*
me: *reaches the hair section*
dollmaker: here are sixteen different styles of straight hair!
me, a black person whose two hairstyles have been "afro" and "dreadlocks": *sighs*
Ah - spoilers on Discord aren't hidden in Ripcord either.
Haven't tested voice at all, but for text it feels like it's functional but with lots of little features that don't work yet.
video essay on the history of homophobia, youtube | CW: Discussion of suicide, homophobic violence, slurs. Show more
"Indoctrination: A History of Homophobia in Schools"
Let's not forget how far we've come. Those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it, after all.
Markdown isn't implemented yet in Ripcord
It's kind of fun watching people using asterisks to indicate emotes when Discord's "/me" command wraps the comment in underscores. I'm sure Discord doesn't actually implement them differently, but I tend to think of asterisks as equivalent to <em> and underscores as equivalent to <i> because of that.
free software, digital compositing, call for maintainer (boost with CW) Show more
From @frju365 in https://mastodon.abld.info/@frju365/101914434976345035
Hello everyone !
📢 🔴 URGENT 🔴
An awesome software is dying, because its #developper has not time anymore to care of it.
It's an alternative of Adobe AfterEffect : Natron (https://natrongithub.github.io/)
Please, can Mastodon community search for a C++ dev, which want to maintain it ? or search for a company which work with free software ? It's very important.
Boost very appreciated
Thanks in advance for your contribution !
us economic history, slavery, income inequality (Washington Post link) (179 words) Show more
To summarize: economists Leah Boustan of Princeton University, Katherine Eriksson of the University of California at Davis and Philipp Ager of the University of Southern Denmark figured out ways to identify southern US slaveholding families whose slaves were emancipated after the US Civil War and compare:
- their wealth in 1870 (the height of Reconstruction) and
- their children's wealth in 1880 and 1890 (after the violent repression of Reconstruction)
...to those of comparable non-slaveholding families.
And they found that even families who had their land seized in Sherman's march, who had 40% less wealth than similar families in neighboring counties, were right back on par afterwards.
If you're wondering just how much the social capital of the wealthy is worth - well, it is absolutely that much.
https://www.washingtonpost.com/us-policy/2019/04/04/how-souths-slave-owning-dynasties-regained-their-wealth-after-civil-war/ is the WaPo article, https://twitter.com/leah_boustan/status/1112689110819442690 is a thread by one of the researchers on Twitter, https://www.nber.org/papers/w25700 is the research paper.
politics, protest, welfare (boost with CW) Show more
What’s been your most on-brand negative reaction to a book?
Mine was when I accidentally picked up a “Christian” mystery set in 1892 & got furious it referenced a “Dear old hymn” not translated into English until the 1920s. (It was new & Swedish/German/Russian in 1892)
Uploads work in Ripcord, though, but I'm not sure it lets you attach them to posts.
Seeing typing notifications for your own typing feels weird, but I can't tell if the setting in preferences just stops showing them to yourself or stops sending them out at all.
also apparently it shows "deleted post" notifications
Hrmph - not seeing a search feature in Ripcord. 😕
more on food-themed puzzle game Show more
A couple new Mai-Chan's Sweet Buns observations from my "try each possible move by itself" experiment:
- Game doesn't have a forfeit option. Annoying when you have seven stars and no way to use them to win.
- I don't really like the randomized special powers like Divination or Seduce. They're not useless, but I like the ability to look several moves in advance and decide exactly how I'm going to deal with a situation, and you mostly can't do that if you don't know what will happen.
I just realized one of the defining features of WASP culture is that politeness is more important than boundaries.
I'm late on this, but sharing in case others have also not heard: Emily Dickinson was totes a lesbian, and the proof was censored out of her letters by her lover's husband's mistress. spectrographic technology allowed the censored parts to be revealed! and there's a movie out about it now.