Heads-up: this is a private, personal account. I ask that people @ me before follow-requesting so I find out if I'm comfortable being open in my locked posts in front of them. Please look over my profile and pinned toots and tell me:
- Where you found my account from,
- Who you are, and
- Why you are interested in following.
You need to understand what lets me feel safe and tell me enough about you that I do, but your toot doesn't have to be elaborate as long as it /does/ tell me; "someone boosted one of your toots and your account looks cool - I'm an autistic trans furry too, can I follow" would still likely show enough.
(If you are seeing this pinned toot because I copy+pasted the above into your DMs, thank you - I appreciate your going to this effort.)
Packbat = a social justice trans gxrl looking for thoughtful musings and pretty art, sharing other people's stuff, and being mentally ill on main (446 words under the cut) Show more
- By 'hikikomori' I mean that I was expected to achieve academic and professional greatness but dropped out of school to live in a house owned by my parents with no job and little in-person interactions with others. If I am missing important subtleties of the definition, I apologize.
- I tend to follow people on social media platforms based on whether I want to subscribe to the feed they are authoring and/or curating, so I neither expect nor make a rule of follow-backs.
- Follows are locked because ... okay, they were *originally* locked because followbots are creepy, but *now* they're locked because I show a lot of vulnerability in locked posts and I want to have some amount of comfort with people I let see them.
- (So far, the people who discover my presence here and care to see what I post seem to be mostly all right.)
- I'm not *fond* of discourse, but frankly, sometimes an opinion being contentious makes it *more* important to pick a side. I try to voice and share thoughtful takes.
- (Also, I have no patience for people who tell me that asexual and aromantic folks aren't queer. That one, I tend to be less "thoughtful" and more "emphatic in my rejection of something which directly harms me")
- My mom did a lot of emotional guilt-tripping. A lot of underhanded-but-widely-accepted-by-society manipulative tactics trigger major anxiety in me, but also just ... people adding emphasis to their recommendations by phrasing them as obligations (e.g. "you have to play this game!"). 'Preciate it if you didn't, especially at me.
- I don't talk a lot about being an atheist - I have Opinions about people who try to impose their theology on others - but I am fairly emphatically one. Mostly turns up in "as a metaphysical naturalist, this is why I disagree with such-and-such societal prejudice that gets passed off as 'scientific'" contexts, but I do sometimes make CWed post rambling or ranting about things.
- As of now, I play a lot of correspondence chess on Gameknot - https://gameknot.com/#packbat - for reasons that are still kind of obscure to me.
- Tabletop RPGs! <3 <3 <3 I play a lot, but haven't GMed much as of yet. My first system was SLUG - https://www.panix.com/~sos/rpg/slug.html - but most of my experience is with D&D.
- No longer unsure of whether I'm furry. 😸 Currently going back and forth between a dragon sona I haven't drawn or had drawn yet and the bat-eared fox sona that @aflightybroad volunteered to draw for me:
on what it means when someone lets you know that you messed up (quote, transphobia mention) Show more
"I guess the moral of the story, or the one I hope some readers take away, is that when YOU are the person doing it — calling the wrong pronoun, saying the ignorant thing, etc. — your behavior is both unacceptable and deeply familiar. And when a trans person takes time to call you out, to explain it to you, to show vulnerability or anger, it comes at a personal risk and a personal cost. It is your job to make that worthwhile."
- Lewis Wallace, "A week or two of being trans at work" https://medium.com/@lewispants/a-week-or-two-of-being-trans-at-work-ddb46134bf38
(Generalize to other marginalized groups.)
As with most philosophies, this can’t really be proven or disproven; there’s no sense trying to argue someone out of the opinion that Phil is an asshole for not acting the way famous people are supposed to act – or, crucially, for not acting the way *we* would act in his place. This is a popular argument because it’s an argument you can’t lose – no one can empirically prove whether Phil is or isn’t an asshole. What gets elided in this argument is the assumption that famous assholes – people who don’t act the way famous people are *supposed* to act – deserve to be *punished*.
- "This Is Phil Fish", Innuendo Studios, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PmTUW-owa2w
(Content warnings on the full video for discussion of harassment, insults framed in terms of sexual assault, and bigotry.)
on promising your account is safe for a marginalized group (364 words) Show more
...the more I understand about how many complicated ways people can be vulnerable and how diverse all our marginalized groups can be, the harder it feels to promise safety. I'm trans and nonbinary, but I'm also indubitably transfeminine - so how do I promise safety to transmasculine people when I don't really know what they need?
Heck, I can't even promise safety to my future self - there is so much I don't know, and so much that I've learned that I haven't noticed the poison in, that I'm sure to err in ways I cannot even imagine until later. *I'm ace* and I reblogged acephobic crap on Tumblr for a while - and while I've deleted those reblogs and unfollowed the person who posted them, how many other things have I screwed up unwittingly?
I'm trying to be safe for nonbinary people, for trans people, for queer people, for lesbians and other gay people, for bi people, for polyamorous people, for polysexual people, for ace people and aro people and people who are both, for autistic people, for trauma survivors, for disabled people, for PoC, for sex workers ... I'm trying, and I'm getting better at it, but I can't just say that I'm safe. That's a promise larger than I can make, larger than I feel comfortable asking anyone to make.
I can try to be safe, I can (hopefully, barring overwhelm from torrents of trolls) listen to critique when I err, and I'm getting pretty good at noticing the difference between "this is a member of a marginalized group asking for consideration and respect" and "this is an advocate for a harmful ideology co-opting a language of social justice for the purpose".
I can't promise to be safe, but I can promise to avoid most of the big mistakes, to acknowledge the mistakes I do make when informed of them, and to forever seek to do better by people.
...and maybe that's what people mean when they share those "my account is safe for" posts. But this is what I mean when I don't.
gonna go to bed
be well, fediversaries
wind to your wings if you want
Can anyone recommend a free lightweight CSV editor? I'm really not fond of using OpenOffice because it's not terrific on performance lmao, and it doesn't really like working with CSV files on a day to day basis
(Currently I'm leaning towards "don't give the rubbish free publicity for being rubbish - it's not even that exceptionally rubbish".)
If people say an article is asinine, you read it, you judge it to be just as fatuous as they say it is, and everyone else who read it in the thread agrees that it's a load of nonsense...
...should you post a link to it for more people to waste their time and free Atlantic article links on, or just move on with your life?
Asking for a me.
PICO-8 Lua programming (brief all caps) (203 words) Show more
...I was originally going to post about something else, but I just stumbled over this in https://www.lua.org/manual/5.3/manual.html#3.3.3 - the manual for Lua 5.3, section 3.3.3:
Lua allows multiple assignments. Therefore, the syntax for assignment defines a list of variables on the left side and a list of expressions on the right side. The elements in both lists are separated by commas:
The assignment statement first evaluates all its expressions and only then the assignments are performed. Thus the code
i = 3
i, a[i] = i+1, 20
sets a to 20, without affecting a because the i in a[i] is evaluated (to 3) before it is assigned 4. Similarly, the line
x, y = y, x
exchanges the values of x and y, and
x, y, z = y, z, x
cyclically permutes the values of x, y, and z.
THAT IS SO COOL.
Being able to swap the contents of variables without temporary variables sounds really convenient and nice.
I am pleased at this.
Also, Lua is weird compared to the languages I've worked in before and this is another example of that. But mostly I'm pleased.
tall friend help small friend get leafs 🍃🦒
+you sincerely, truly, absolutely do not need to draw super good to make good looking comics. you don't. that's a lie. good art is fun, but good art that doesn't communicate what's supposed to be depicted is BAD COMICS, and bad art that communicates well is GOOD ART AND COMICS
Stumbled over "Nothing to Say" recently on itch.io and it's really cute! https://celia14.itch.io/nothing-to-say
You play a tongue-tied person on a date, and you can only say things that you've unlocked the letters for ... but the person you're on a date with is nice and supportive and positive? It's frustrating not to be able to speak much but it felt to me like she was really accepting of however much or little I could say.
Reading Sarah Lamdan's critique of the Data Rescue efforts, and I really think the idea of doing archives as rescue missions is one of the most poisonous ideas within the larger archives discourse (see also: the disproportionate amount of media attention Jason Scott gets). It distracts us from doing the work of the politics around records and archives, which is less sexy but critical to preventing breakdowns of public trust https://scholarship.law.upenn.edu/penn_law_review_online/vol166/iss1/12/
At CEU, for the opening of its medieval department in Vienna, part of their move away from Budapest due to pressure from Orban.
Some great talks especially on the need to teach informal and lower register Latin to help deconstruct the traditional view of Latin as solely comprising the elite "high" language and other registers simply being "incorrect", which ends up basically importing Roman social stratification into our own view of their history.
Today I got to see leaves swirle in smol spontaneous minitornadoes, so it was a good day
me: I should check off something from my YouTube "Watch Later" playlist, but I don't want to watch something that needs my focus.
me: oh, hey, here's a musical piece I saw mentioned a while ago - that'll do nicely.
Ben Johnston: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wp7VjBtOJ74
me: ... *shamefacedly puts it back on my "Watch Later" list for when I can focus on it*
Anyone know any good apps for learning conversational Hmong? uTalk has Somali and Oromo, but I couldn't find any apps that worked for Hmong. Boosts appreciated.
did you know that not only am i ace, i love being ace and have no desire to change that? because it's who i am and i'm not broken? it's true! c:
"All humans are misfits," the alien said.
The barman, an Australian, smiled. "Really? Ever been to Earth?"
"Never. But all humans I've met have been."
"Only two kinds of human out here. Those who travel from, and those who travel to."
"Well, the rest don't travel."
#MicroFiction #TootFic #SmallStories
Hot Pol Take, not my dadgum comrades Show more
If your revolutionary organizing discludes parents then it’s not inclusive and it’s going nowhere.
If you don’t fully value people until adulthood then you’ve internalized capitalistic values based on production of labor and low burden on resources. Children are the most precious asset to the fight and they carry on our goals and reap the benefits of our work.
Hot Pol Take, not my dadgum comrades Show more
Add a volunteer based daycare to anything you’re organizing, watch your numbers grow. Ask parents what our communities can do to take care of them and the little ones, watch how powerful we become. The CIA viewed the Black Panthers feeding the children as a terrifying revolutionary act. Meditate on why.