Heads-up: this is a private, personal account. I ask that people @ me before follow-requesting so I find out if I'm comfortable being open in my locked posts in front of them. Please look over my profile and pinned toots and tell me:
- Where you found my account from,
- Who you are, and
- Why you are interested in following.
You need to understand what lets me feel safe and tell me enough about you that I do, but your toot doesn't have to be elaborate as long as it /does/ tell me; "someone boosted one of your toots and your account looks cool - I'm an autistic trans furry too, can I follow" would still likely show enough.
(If you are seeing this pinned toot because I copy+pasted the above into your DMs, thank you - I appreciate your going to this effort.)
Packbat = a social justice trans gxrl looking for thoughtful musings and pretty art, sharing other people's stuff, and being mentally ill on main (446 words under the cut) Show more
- By 'hikikomori' I mean that I was expected to achieve academic and professional greatness but dropped out of school to live in a house owned by my parents with no job and little in-person interactions with others. If I am missing important subtleties of the definition, I apologize.
- I tend to follow people on social media platforms based on whether I want to subscribe to the feed they are authoring and/or curating, so I neither expect nor make a rule of follow-backs.
- Follows are locked because ... okay, they were *originally* locked because followbots are creepy, but *now* they're locked because I show a lot of vulnerability in locked posts and I want to have some amount of comfort with people I let see them.
- (So far, the people who discover my presence here and care to see what I post seem to be mostly all right.)
- I'm not *fond* of discourse, but frankly, sometimes an opinion being contentious makes it *more* important to pick a side. I try to voice and share thoughtful takes.
- (Also, I have no patience for people who tell me that asexual and aromantic folks aren't queer. That one, I tend to be less "thoughtful" and more "emphatic in my rejection of something which directly harms me")
- My mom did a lot of emotional guilt-tripping. A lot of underhanded-but-widely-accepted-by-society manipulative tactics trigger major anxiety in me, but also just ... people adding emphasis to their recommendations by phrasing them as obligations (e.g. "you have to play this game!"). 'Preciate it if you didn't, especially at me.
- I don't talk a lot about being an atheist - I have Opinions about people who try to impose their theology on others - but I am fairly emphatically one. Mostly turns up in "as a metaphysical naturalist, this is why I disagree with such-and-such societal prejudice that gets passed off as 'scientific'" contexts, but I do sometimes make CWed post rambling or ranting about things.
- As of now, I play a lot of correspondence chess on Gameknot - https://gameknot.com/#packbat - for reasons that are still kind of obscure to me.
- Tabletop RPGs! <3 <3 <3 I play a lot, but haven't GMed much as of yet. My first system was SLUG - https://www.panix.com/~sos/rpg/slug.html - but most of my experience is with D&D.
- No longer unsure of whether I'm furry. 😸 Currently going back and forth between a dragon sona I haven't drawn or had drawn yet and the bat-eared fox sona that @aflightybroad volunteered to draw for me:
on what it means when someone lets you know that you messed up (quote, transphobia mention) Show more
"I guess the moral of the story, or the one I hope some readers take away, is that when YOU are the person doing it — calling the wrong pronoun, saying the ignorant thing, etc. — your behavior is both unacceptable and deeply familiar. And when a trans person takes time to call you out, to explain it to you, to show vulnerability or anger, it comes at a personal risk and a personal cost. It is your job to make that worthwhile."
- Lewis Wallace, "A week or two of being trans at work" https://medium.com/@lewispants/a-week-or-two-of-being-trans-at-work-ddb46134bf38
(Generalize to other marginalized groups.)
As with most philosophies, this can’t really be proven or disproven; there’s no sense trying to argue someone out of the opinion that Phil is an asshole for not acting the way famous people are supposed to act – or, crucially, for not acting the way *we* would act in his place. This is a popular argument because it’s an argument you can’t lose – no one can empirically prove whether Phil is or isn’t an asshole. What gets elided in this argument is the assumption that famous assholes – people who don’t act the way famous people are *supposed* to act – deserve to be *punished*.
- "This Is Phil Fish", Innuendo Studios, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PmTUW-owa2w
(Content warnings on the full video for discussion of harassment, insults framed in terms of sexual assault, and bigotry.)
on promising your account is safe for a marginalized group (364 words) Show more
...the more I understand about how many complicated ways people can be vulnerable and how diverse all our marginalized groups can be, the harder it feels to promise safety. I'm trans and nonbinary, but I'm also indubitably transfeminine - so how do I promise safety to transmasculine people when I don't really know what they need?
Heck, I can't even promise safety to my future self - there is so much I don't know, and so much that I've learned that I haven't noticed the poison in, that I'm sure to err in ways I cannot even imagine until later. *I'm ace* and I reblogged acephobic crap on Tumblr for a while - and while I've deleted those reblogs and unfollowed the person who posted them, how many other things have I screwed up unwittingly?
I'm trying to be safe for nonbinary people, for trans people, for queer people, for lesbians and other gay people, for bi people, for polyamorous people, for polysexual people, for ace people and aro people and people who are both, for autistic people, for trauma survivors, for disabled people, for PoC, for sex workers ... I'm trying, and I'm getting better at it, but I can't just say that I'm safe. That's a promise larger than I can make, larger than I feel comfortable asking anyone to make.
I can try to be safe, I can (hopefully, barring overwhelm from torrents of trolls) listen to critique when I err, and I'm getting pretty good at noticing the difference between "this is a member of a marginalized group asking for consideration and respect" and "this is an advocate for a harmful ideology co-opting a language of social justice for the purpose".
I can't promise to be safe, but I can promise to avoid most of the big mistakes, to acknowledge the mistakes I do make when informed of them, and to forever seek to do better by people.
...and maybe that's what people mean when they share those "my account is safe for" posts. But this is what I mean when I don't.
Hey so, I'm putting together a transmasc resource site (to include compilation of folks' self-reported experiences with transitioning, legal info stuff by state, a community/media side of things, and eventually hopefully community submissions).
I'm really interested in transmasc folks sharing what sorts of info they'd like to have covered, whether that's personal experiences they want represented or questions they'd like answered.
Pls send me yr thoughts, and boost this if yr comfy with it.
Because I was looking it up for other reasons: "How Terry Pratchett helped me hate a party and keep it real" by Maureen Johnson. https://maureenjohnsonbooks.tumblr.com/post/113440109938/how-terry-pratchett-helped-me-hate-a-party-and
Content warnings for food, alcohol, and people being rude. Also, mention of death. But it's kind of comforting, regardless.
An in-depth look at the new RasPi 4, including plenty of benchmarks:
Raspberry Pi 4, Low-budget Computing Show more
I wouldn't blame you for thinking this sounds like click-bait. But it's really not.
The Raspberry Pi 4 is frankly more than enough for accessing the internet, using word documents, and doing some light task-work (photo/video editing would probably be a bad idea... light coding might be fine).
For $35-$55 it is now possible to have a barebones computer with access to the internet. This is an incredible development.
Here is the annotation if you cannot listen to it https://genius.com/Porsha-olayiwola-angry-black-woman-annotated but I really love how she goes from "I'm super dainty" to "I'm pissed the fuck off" with a quickness.
Me, every once in a while: "it's kinda odd that I know the genital configuration of like, most of my friends."
me: "oh right cis society assumes you know the configuration of everybody. What the fuck."
reclaimed ableist slur Show more
today i learned that macy gray is ND fam. definitely had a feeling, but here it is:
the lyrics to this song are funny as hell, and scathing. pure "yeah, that's me. and? you love me, so maybe grab a mirror".
neuroqueer praxis in action
trans issues, asking for help Show more
my insurance isn't gonna cover what i thought it would. i'm fighting with them right now, but it's looking like my top surgery is going to cost 7,000 dollars more than I anticipated.
any help/signal boosts/anything would be massively appreciated. I'm struggling here.
Was one of you looking for high-quality video essay games crit the other month? Because this week @Aradia pointed me at the youtube channel Errant Signal. Not only are these videos great, there's a ton of them.
still sore about ethics in tech class, IP bullshit Show more
thinking about how mad we still are about hearing an ethics prof say that if things like music or scientific papers were always free and not a reliable source of profit, then no one would ever bother to make them
the music part of that is bad enough
the science part of that displays an absolutely shocking ignorance about how scientific publishing works
social justice terminology, pollution metaphor (violence mention) Show more
Watched the Renegade Cut video on toxic masculinity and anti-hierarchism earlier - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E_O7w5W7rZg - and while I was mulling it over I came up with a metaphor:
The "toxic" in "toxic masculinity" is like the "leaded" in "leaded gasoline". Something was added to the system to produce a profitable effect for those in power, and that thing is poison, and we need to change what we do so we can get rid of it.
(In the case of leaded gasoline, that was "sell more powerful/economical cars that depend on its anti-knock properties" and in the case of toxic masculinity, that was "maintain a hierarchy full of people willing to do the violence necessary to perpetuate it", but in both cases, the profits go to the powerful.)
GDQ mascot, gamers being inclusive (225 words) re: proposed term Show more
Honestly, part of why I wanted to propose KAG (Kyriarchy-Advocating Gamer) as a term is because of stuff like GDQ's new enby mascot (see https://twitter.com/GamesDoneQuick/status/1142825893334638592 if you missed it).
Here's the thing. Games are for everyone. The #gameing community is really emphatic about this. Like any group with as much mainstream membership as games, they might not be perfect allies, but they've looked at the KAGs and looked at marginalized folks and they've got a pretty good idea which side they should be coming down on.
So: an event for gamers (not that GDQ would be likely to explicitly exclude non-gamers, but who else is going to spend hours watching speedruns?) deciding that their branding should be something that will /definitely/ piss of KAGs? No more surprising to me than an event for feminists definitely pissing off TERFs. That's a no-brainer decision. It's better for the event and it's better for the people at the event.
...and having the word KAG makes that trivially easy to explain. No need to find an adjective and find a contrary adjective and hope people track which adjective applies to which. The word "gamer" doesn't belong to the KAGs, and we don't need to humor their attempts to claim it any more.
proposed term (violent reactionary mentions) Show more
You know how we have TERF and SWERF to refer to reactionary bigots in feminism? I think we should have something for reactionary bigots in gaming.
I suggest Kyriarchy-Advocating Gamers, or KAGs.
"Ignore the KAGs - the new Lego DLC in Forza Horizon 4 is a lot of fun."
"Honestly, any company with a pander-to-KAGs marketing strategy in 2019 deserves to go under."
"A big part of the reason why KAGs became the way they are is historical: they came of age during an era when videogames were being marketed as a tool for boys to prop up their masculinity and never learned to question it."
Are you a game dev that's worked with creating rumble patterns/interaction in games (from any era, not just currently)?
Please get in touch!
I'm assisting someone doing history work in this area and am looking to gather more info, so anything you have would be great!
holocaust -, BAD racism - (also a strong curse word but who cares) Show more
this year I had a history teacher who claimed to be at least democratic but constantly referred to "the hispanic problem" and hOO BOY LEMME TELL YOU as a proud member of the "jewish problem" FUCK OFF YA NAZI CUNT
Bird (normal-sized) riding bird (humanoid) riding bird (horse-sized). Bird stack!