Packbat = a social justice trans gxrl looking for thoughtful musings and pretty art, sharing other people's stuff, and being mentally ill on main (446 words under the cut) Show more
- By 'hikikomori' I mean that I was expected to achieve academic and professional greatness but dropped out of school to live in a house owned by my parents with no job and little in-person interactions with others. If I am missing important subtleties of the definition, I apologize.
- I tend to follow people on social media platforms based on whether I want to subscribe to the feed they are authoring and/or curating, so I neither expect nor make a rule of follow-backs.
- Follows are locked because ... okay, they were *originally* locked because followbots are creepy, but *now* they're locked because I show a lot of vulnerability in locked posts and I want to have some amount of comfort with people I let see them.
- (So far, the people who discover my presence here and care to see what I post seem to be mostly all right.)
- I'm not *fond* of discourse, but frankly, sometimes an opinion being contentious makes it *more* important to pick a side. I try to voice and share thoughtful takes.
- (Also, I have no patience for people who tell me that asexual and aromantic folks aren't queer. That one, I tend to be less "thoughtful" and more "emphatic in my rejection of something which directly harms me")
- My mom did a lot of emotional guilt-tripping. A lot of underhanded-but-widely-accepted-by-society manipulative tactics trigger major anxiety in me, but also just ... people adding emphasis to their recommendations by phrasing them as obligations (e.g. "you have to play this game!"). 'Preciate it if you didn't, especially at me.
- I don't talk a lot about being an atheist - I have Opinions about people who try to impose their theology on others - but I am fairly emphatically one. Mostly turns up in "as a metaphysical naturalist, this is why I disagree with such-and-such societal prejudice that gets passed off as 'scientific'" contexts, but I do sometimes make CWed post rambling or ranting about things.
- As of now, I play a lot of correspondence chess on Gameknot - https://gameknot.com/#packbat - for reasons that are still kind of obscure to me.
- Tabletop RPGs! <3 <3 <3 I play a lot, but haven't GMed much as of yet. My first system was SLUG - https://www.panix.com/~sos/rpg/slug.html - but most of my experience is with D&D.
- No longer unsure of whether I'm furry. 😸 Currently going back and forth between a dragon sona I haven't drawn or had drawn yet and the bat-eared fox sona that @aflightybroad volunteered to draw for me:
on what it means when someone lets you know that you messed up (quote, transphobia mention) Show more
"I guess the moral of the story, or the one I hope some readers take away, is that when YOU are the person doing it — calling the wrong pronoun, saying the ignorant thing, etc. — your behavior is both unacceptable and deeply familiar. And when a trans person takes time to call you out, to explain it to you, to show vulnerability or anger, it comes at a personal risk and a personal cost. It is your job to make that worthwhile."
- Lewis Wallace, "A week or two of being trans at work" https://medium.com/@lewispants/a-week-or-two-of-being-trans-at-work-ddb46134bf38
(Generalize to other marginalized groups.)
As with most philosophies, this can’t really be proven or disproven; there’s no sense trying to argue someone out of the opinion that Phil is an asshole for not acting the way famous people are supposed to act – or, crucially, for not acting the way *we* would act in his place. This is a popular argument because it’s an argument you can’t lose – no one can empirically prove whether Phil is or isn’t an asshole. What gets elided in this argument is the assumption that famous assholes – people who don’t act the way famous people are *supposed* to act – deserve to be *punished*.
- "This Is Phil Fish", Innuendo Studios, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PmTUW-owa2w
(Content warnings on the full video for discussion of harassment, insults framed in terms of sexual assault, and bigotry.)
on promising your account is safe for a marginalized group (364 words) Show more
...the more I understand about how many complicated ways people can be vulnerable and how diverse all our marginalized groups can be, the harder it feels to promise safety. I'm trans and nonbinary, but I'm also indubitably transfeminine - so how do I promise safety to transmasculine people when I don't really know what they need?
Heck, I can't even promise safety to my future self - there is so much I don't know, and so much that I've learned that I haven't noticed the poison in, that I'm sure to err in ways I cannot even imagine until later. *I'm ace* and I reblogged acephobic crap on Tumblr for a while - and while I've deleted those reblogs and unfollowed the person who posted them, how many other things have I screwed up unwittingly?
I'm trying to be safe for nonbinary people, for trans people, for queer people, for lesbians and other gay people, for bi people, for polyamorous people, for polysexual people, for ace people and aro people and people who are both, for autistic people, for trauma survivors, for disabled people, for PoC, for sex workers ... I'm trying, and I'm getting better at it, but I can't just say that I'm safe. That's a promise larger than I can make, larger than I feel comfortable asking anyone to make.
I can try to be safe, I can (hopefully, barring overwhelm from torrents of trolls) listen to critique when I err, and I'm getting pretty good at noticing the difference between "this is a member of a marginalized group asking for consideration and respect" and "this is an advocate for a harmful ideology co-opting a language of social justice for the purpose".
I can't promise to be safe, but I can promise to avoid most of the big mistakes, to acknowledge the mistakes I do make when informed of them, and to forever seek to do better by people.
...and maybe that's what people mean when they share those "my account is safe for" posts. But this is what I mean when I don't.
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Panel 1: A dark-haired human sitting in the lap of a humanoid robot with a black domed head. The front of the dome has a white heart on it and small dashes suggestive of blushing on the cheeks. The human is tied hand and foot.
Human, grumpily: Are the ropes _really_ necessary?
Robot: For as long as you refuse to calm down
Panel 2: Headshot of just the human.
Human, slyly: Well I'll have you know that I've slipped out of knots _much_ better than this.
Panel 3: Headshot of just the robot, now with exclamation points in place of the heart and the blush lines.
Robot: Good point! Plan B then. [odd noise, indicated by vertical squiggles] Relax.
Panel 4: Headshot of just the human. A line with wiggles in the middle is passing 'through' their head; they are startled and beginning to blush.
Panel 5: Headshot of just the human. Their head is slumping forward.
Robot: Whoa there. I got you.
Panel 6: The human is now relaxed and leaning back against the robot, head turned gently to one side. The robot, with their face back to showing the heart, has their hand against the side of the human's head.
Robot: Much better.
very quick and rough doodle comic about a hypnotically assisted cuddle session with a robot, with some themes of d/s and ropeworks present, with some minor implication of dubious consent practices Show more
because I was a huge tease last night with CWs apparently
this doodle ran away with me a little, it was just supposed to be the first panel and then the rest just kind of happe n e d
We think of plants as stationary beings, but they're not. They just live on different timescales to animals like us.
All plants move, their leaves jostling amongst each other, trying to catch the optimal amount of light. But mostly, we don't notice.
Sometimes, I catch my plants moving when their leaves brush past each other. Usually after I adjust their lights, the fussy little things.
(what the actual diagram is looking like)
Been tinkering with my muscle insertion/origin diagram again.
It looks pretty cool without the bones and labels E:
insights on tolerance, long long, boosts + Show more
From le birdsite Show more
okay y’all let’s settle this, what is the perfect toast colour
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@TheEnbyperor A slightly cropped image of "Remix Of Josef Albers' Homage to [Charles Strite As] a Square, Also Known As Gitterbro" by David Corns and Sean Cottengim - src: http://davidmaneclangcorns.com/toast.html - with row numbers and column letters added.
Filling the rectangular grid formed by these now-labeled rows and columns are individual slices of toast, starting at a1 with a slice that appears uncooked and, as the eye travels to the right and/or down, growing progressively darker towards distinctly black-burnt slices in the lower parts of the rightmost column (j) and rightmost parts of the bottom visible row (8).
(Another row clearly exists below row 8, but has been almost entirely cropped off.)
this is showing the original words on the left, and the "sounded out" words from the model on the right. the model I trained going the other way (orthography to phoneme features) performs pretty close to published baselines for similar grapheme-to-phoneme models (phoneme error rate = ~7%, word error rate = ~30%), but there are comparatively fewer papers about phoneme-to-grapheme models, so I'm not sure if this is "good" or not
going back to the regular seq2seq networks, I'm trying to do some quantitative evaluation. the phoneme features to orthography model gets... ~60% of words wrong, and ~12% of letters wrong (working on samples a few thousand words from cmudict), but its guesses seem... reasonable? not sure how to talk about this
please make your markov bots use a content warning that denotes it as a markov bot, or other algorithmically generated content, thanks (boosts are okay, not about anyone in particular, a general plea)
I sent this picture of rock to my geologist friend and he fucking TOLD ME WHERE I HAD BEEN
There are no names where we're going
cw: terfs, help out a good scottish org being harassed by them Show more
Glasgow Women's Library is getting some terf backlash after cutting ties with the Scottish "Audacious Women Fest" due to AWfest's dubiously transphobic access policies. GWL does good things and now would be a good time to donate to them here: https://womenslibrary.org.uk/how-to-get-involved/make-a-donation/
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A waxing crescent moon, just before the first quarter, pictured with the illuminated side upwards. The craters near the transition from lit to unlit are clearly visible, numerous, and distinct. The varying coloration of the lunar surface is also quite clear, on both the lit and unlit sides. There is a glow from around the illuminated half, and stars are clear points in the background.
This dude took thousands of pictures of the moon and created a 9000 pixel wide incredibly beautiful composite. https://www.reddit.com/r/space/comments/arer0k/i_took_nearly_50000_images_of_the_night_sky_to/
Hello everyone my name is Kevo , I am a glassblower from Connecticut. This is my first time on Mastodon. I haven't really even been on Twitter before. My friend @jgmac1106 is helping me build a website https://kevo.glass
I am getting tired of trying to figure out Instagram and sell through DMs and figure out their rules
Greg said his friend @jacky.wtf recommended this place for artists